Pickton Trial

The Beginning Of Grieving

By Citizen Correspondent Trisha Baptie
Date Posted: 12/09/07
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It's official - Robert "Willie" Pickton is a convicted serial killer and the families of six victims have some justice after yesterday's guilty verdict. Trisha Baptie, citizen correspondent for Orato.com and former colleague of many of the missing and murdered women, has been covering this trial since its beginning and was there when the verdict came in. After almost a year of emotional testimony and grisly evidence, Trisha finally heard the words she'd been waiting for, and it unleashed a watershed of emotions. This CBC Newsworld video captures Trisha's reaction, and here she writes about what it all means: the beginning of proper mourning.

The day arrived - December 9, 2007 is the day that missing women from the Downtown Eastside were declared deceased in a most violent way by the hands of Robert Pickton.

Just before 11 a.m. this morning as I was walking with coffee in hand back to my seat amongst the families, I heard Murray, a loved one of one of the victims yell out "verdict!"

I wanted to punch him for playing a bad joke. I am not sure why that was my first instinct, for he's not the type to do that knowing how frayed all our nerves were, but then it sunk in. The moment, the end, was truly now here. I quite seriously felt nauseous.

I became so flustered, grabbing my coat and purse trying to push the butterflies out of my stomach, looking incredulously at the families as if to say, this was really it.

I was almost scared of the verdict, for whatever it was, it would be the end to our endless hours of speculation. It would become a concrete thing that could not be changed, and I was so scared it could be what we did not want to hear.

The air became electrically charged; the sudden intensity could knock the wind out of you, and the news of a verdict spread faster than the speed of light. People's cell phones came out and they began to call family members and others awaiting the verdict. I called my children.

My children have been at the courthouse during deliberations at the request of the families, on whom this trial has been taking an incredible toll.


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Re: VIDEO: The Beginning Of Grieving

By luyen, December 10, 2007 at 11:09

In response to Joanne - first of all, it's great that you successfully overcame so many obstacles, I think that's a testimony to your will-power.

I think every person is different and every circumstance is different, most people do not have the strength or determination to remove themselves from harmful situations, case in point, is abusive relationships where there is always a glimmer of hope that from despair will come something better.

I don't feel sorry for people on the street, but I feel strong compassion for them - because even though i've never been a drug addict or a prostitute, i know that when we're stuck in destructive cycles, sometimes they have to play themselves out, and the willpower is really to just bear it until we have the opportunity to get out, and I think that opportunity comes by and large through the kindness of others, despite the impression that we alone are responsible for our own success.

So I think positive personal experiences are amazing, what you've done is amazing, but it can't necessarily be applied to each individual, because their psychological make up is no doubt totally different from yours or mine, or anybody's.

Re: VIDEO: The Beginning Of Grieving

By Paul Sullivan, December 10, 2007 at 10:50

Hi Trisha. I think it's safe to say that you and Pauline have done something history-making at this trial. Together you have changed the focus of the media coverage. Throughout, you have honored the victims, help preserve their identities despite their horrible deaths, and maintained a clear focus on what's important -- not just the monster (or monsters) who preyed on these women, not just the grim and gory details, but the ones left behind: the mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, friends, and the people who are still out there...in danger and distress. On Vancouver's downtown east side, and anywhere in the world where human beings have run out of luck and hope and are lost in the night.

Thanks so much for your commitment and your work.

Paul

Paul Sullivan,
Editor-In-Chief

Re: VIDEO: The Beginning Of Grieving

By Joanne, December 10, 2007 at 07:57

Thank goodness he was convicted. But I do not think its societies problem regarding the sex trade workers anywhere. If these woman want to change their lives then do it. Don't tell me that you can't. There is no such word to me. There are alot of jobs everywhere but people are to lazy to work in my opinion. I have been sexually abused at age 12, on drugs and drank my self silly in my teens and 20's which led me to have sex with everyone and anyone. Beat up by someone who I thought loved me left and ended up a single mother but did I say poor little me someone should help me NO. Instead now I am happily married, my husband has helped me through many obstacles but it was still my stubborn determination he says that helped,my children are healthy and happy, I'm a Grandmother has of 2007, and I work now has a Registered Nurse. So I don't feel sorry for people on the streets because YOU CAN CHANGE IF YOU WANT TO.

Re: VIDEO: The Beginning Of Grieving

By Heather Wallace, December 9, 2007 at 23:02

I don't want to sound negative, but I'm not sure the voices you gave the women will change anything on the DTES. As you said in the interview, despite all the evidence that something is seriously wrong down there and in society, not much has changed, and I fear that as we go back to our normal lives, we will forget that we never learned our lessons. While we focus on these women's deaths, we are still missing the point - what went wrong in their lives while they were still breathing, long before they ended up in Canada's skids. I know you will continue to work to get us to collectively wake up. I think we're still sleeping, so keep talking until everyone's listening and actually taking effective steps to help people before they're far gone.

Heather Wallace
senior editor
orato.com

Re: VIDEO: The Beginning Of Grieving

By Robyn Stubbs, December 9, 2007 at 22:53

Yes, a powerful, moving interview, Trisha. You have driven home the fact that the people suffering on the DTES are people with families who love them - they are mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles ... Your committment to giving all of the missing women a voice is truly admirable, and thanks to you and your Orato collegue, Pauline VanKoll, your voices will finally institute change.

For many of us, this trial marks the end - in our heads, the guilty party has been held accountable and we can go back to daily life, satisfied with the outcome. But I know that for you, for the familes, and for the people still in grips of addiction on the DTES, there are still many battles to be fought. I can't think of a better warrior.

Thank you Trisha, thank you Pauline.

Re: VIDEO: Orato's Trisha Baptie Reacts To Guilty Verdict On CBC

By lee lakeman, December 9, 2007 at 18:59

I just wanted to compliment Trisha Baptie for excellent work and excellent politics and values in talking about these murders and the horrors of the sex trade industry. Please contact Rape Relief if there is any way I can support your work now. I think you have been amazing and I can only imagine the costs

Re: VIDEO: Orato's Trisha Baptie reacts to verdict on CBC Newswo

By luyen, December 9, 2007 at 17:53

That is an amazing interview - powerful and informative too, in terms of a human perspective, it might sound trite to say congratulations, but certainly thank you Trisha, i think most people, myself included have no idea about these women past and present working in the downtown east-side and their plight...it has really opened my eyes.